Things change. With age, lifestyle, marital status and parenthood.
So, I woke up on Monday morning, as you do, walked slowly and bleary eyed to the bathroom and got a thankfully, blurry glimpse of myself in the mirror.
Oh….. My……. Gosh! What has happened to me?
Let me take you back a few years so you get the gist of what I’m trying to say.
All through my late teens and twenties… Actually, scrap that, all up until I came home from the hospital with a baby…. I was the girl that always had matching underwear and practical, yet pretty nightwear. It was something that I did, that genuinely made me feel good about myself.
I always felt, and to be honest, I still feel that as a woman,you should do anything and everything to make sure you feel comfortable in your own skin. This means different things to different people. But for me, its the attempt to look and feel ‘put together’, even without a face full of make up. So having my nails painted (not necessarily professionally), eyebrows kept in check, skin in as good a condition as I can get it and nice underwear/nightwear/loungewear.
Fast forward to March 2016, I came home from the hospital after having my little boy and I felt like i’d been hit by a double decker bus. Labour had tired me out and I was healing from a cesarean section. My milk was coming through and I felt all together like a large pile of bloated horse $h!t. Post birth body changes and the fact that I had a cesarean section meant that my choice of underwear was limited to big, over-sized, granny type full briefs. Breastfeeding also meant that I needed an appropriate bra. Coupled together, breastfeeding bras and big knickers are not necessarily ‘pretty’ but I wasn’t bothered. It was what was practical for the time. Also very practical for the time were knee length, loose button down nighties. Easy access for night time breastfeeding and although ugly, flattering in hiding the mum tum.
Fast forward again to Monday morning and I was staring at myself, 13 months post birth in a button down ugly lilac nightie with lavender coloured flowers. I had a dusty pink scarf tied around my head… and it almost felt like I was looking in the mirror and seeing someone completely different.
I have become very comfortable in ugly nightwear, I have for the last 13 months wore only black underwear and my loungewear consists of anything that can handle being covered in milk, saliva and baby food.
Disclaimer: I love black underwear. I just don’t like the black underwear that I currently own.
So, I’m writing this post to remind me to be me. For a while, there’s probably nothing that I can do about the loungewear, but I can definitely put on some nice shorts and a tank before going to bed.
Sometimes ladies, after having a child, we ladies feel down and we don’t feel ourselves. If you feel this way, try as much as possible to do something that you did pre birth that made you feel good. Go and get a manicure, have afternoon tea with friends, wear that red lippie. Trust me, it will make you feel a little better and in time you’ll find your new norm. For me, I’m reverting back to the underwear and nightwear that I feel amazing in. I’m also going to take out time on a Sunday evening to polish my nails for the week ahead.
What little quirks make you feel like you?
PS. After taking off the nightie to have a shower, I threw it away!